It Settled Uninvited.

I plead for its death.

It settled in uninvited and, gradually, it anxiously eats me whole.

My body trembles and shakes and shivers,

It seems too scary. It tastes too bold.

My arms beg forgiveness

And my heart of gold,

It mourns for its life and craves to be sold.

It settled in uninvited and snatched my sleep away.

I tremble and shake and shiver,

I cry in despair dismay.

I can't see any light ahead.

I bow down to pray.

It settled in uninvited and, it set my insides on fire.

I lay my burned skin on reality's conceivable outcomes,

And my single desire

Is that it fades away.

Let me be myself today.

It settles in my chest and, it doesn't disappear.

It haunts and taunts me with my insecurities,

It pains me with fear.

And for fear, I cannot rest,

I cannot imagine and, nothing seems clear.

Like a cloud hovering on top of me.

Incessant rain asphyxiating me.

My brain is out of tune,

Like a sad piano.

Like a cloud-covered moon.

I cannot glow for it took my daylight away.

It drained my own being

And now it won't wither away.

It settled at the back of my mind

And, it uses my own body against me.

I fear myself and what I might find

On the darkest parts of my insecurity.

I dream and blend facts with its' visions.

I am both the star, the comet

And, the most ruthless collisions.

I have had hopes of it fading.

Of it simply collapsing

And merging to jewels in the sky.

But when there is only I,

It settles and causes me to die.

Within my own minds' fire,

my unique desire

is for it to move away.

No words I can say

Will ever bear the burden and the damage it holds.

Hold me until this ghost is without me.

This song that screeches and derides and scolds.

This shadow that merely I can see.

I am rotting within me.

I can sense my delights and giggle converting to dust.

As it does what it deems it must,

And it slays what it deems must be slain.

Like my soul and everything I relish,

I observe myself enter the kingdom

Of isolation,

Of wickedness.

Of yelling and screaming

And anxiously pleading

For it to go.

But it settled uninvited, and, so,

The single word it grasps is hello.

Its' absence will forever be a lie,

Because this beast does not know the word goodbye.

And I must now rest with it,

Or be eternally confined in its sobriety.

And, in its variety

of agony,

Lonesome restless nights are achieving wonders.

I can't sense the sun no more.

I can simply hear thunders

Forever keeping me awake.

As I shiver, I tremble and I shake.